Acharya Peter Wilberg's Bulletin

Edited by author 24-10-2009 11:00 AM
Hello Steven,

I trust your retreat went well. I have somewhat inundated myself with reading, having purchased quite a number of core books to establish my Shiva library. I have done what is probably not wise, in reading parts of all of them, like jumping from stone to stone in a river of awareness. There is so much in "Triadic Heart of Shiva", so full of the rich teachings of Acharya Abhinavagupta, I cannot honestly say I have even half begun to absorb its treasures.
Currently my inner responses have been somewhat undisciplined and more a stream expression of awarenesses and questionings that have arisen from my reading. Perhaps this is because I realise how much I currently lack in content of the rich tradition of Kashmir Shaivism, and my constricted academic experience. With this goes a certain hesitancy to speak with confidence on detail. However, the sharing of "Awarenessing" bears fruit however it is expressed. Along with this of course are also the equally awareness-provoking and enlightening offerings of Acharya, that flow with abundance.
Thank you for your reference to my other blogs and sharings. I am presently in dialogue with Acharya, particularly about absorbing meditation wherein the "Other", even the most mundane can transform its meaning, its nature, its 'rasa', to Shiva Awareness within.
At present I have been experinecing in awareness moments the deep impression of how utterly unique each, bindu connected point of here-now of Kali manifestation is. Each moment, each Jiva passage, each Jiva-Jiva connection, each configuration in time, space, connection (particularly of meanings) as that which will never be imitated in all the manifestation of Eternity. Even as a copy it would be a 'copy' and not the original.
I am reminded of the Expansion and Contraction inherent in the term 'visarga' discussed by Muller-Ortega, a quality of the Heart.

How does it connect within me?
It appears, and it has been thus far too few and brief in experience, but nevertheless powerful, - that in seeing this utter uniqueness, of this bindu-like 'now', this bindu-like 'here', there is an awareness of utter contraction.
And yet, and this is hard to express, but I will attempt it, this utter contraction brings about an expansion, wherein the uniqueness is so utter, that time and space become in a sense irrelevent, and boundless in quality. Each moment like this is still but moving, is contracted but expanding, and now I have (*No! not 'I have', but rather 'there is') an awareness that this is the very quality of the Visarga, and thus the Heart of Shiva, quietly throbbing in each moment. That is all I can say.

(*I am slowly acquiring from dialogue with Acharya, some skills to more clearly express the inner experience of awareness as a 'Jiva', without incorrectly conveying an unintended meaning of it somehow being 'possessed' by the Jiva. I am finding that without due care, words, even just one preposition can lead to a lack of clarity. Both the writing of Paul Eduardo Muller-Ortega (what a fluid beautiful name) and of Acharya, amongst others, are fine examples for me. Attainment of that level will not be achieved in this passage for this Jiva, I think. And that's ok.)

My email is lloyds11@tpg.com.au

BTW, Did you know Fosters has lost its sheen here? Its down the list now in Oz.

Namaste