Edited by author 02-18-2007 05:10 AM
Whoever wrote this , seems to be sincere and I can see a flow in the writing.To me it does not look planned or contradictory.But usedbybaba need not get so angry.
Angel, I already told you that when he did it for the first time to me he was an expert in handling people and i was just a young boy in college totally trusting him and worshipping him like what u are doing now or even more.I am not talking about ur devotin and comparing it to mine, i was physically in his place, hearing his dicourses people always talking of miracles. What would be my faith? When he did it for the first time, i was so devoted i felt all my sins are gone once he touched my privete part. it took years to undrestand that he was actually exploiting me. For some students, they were smart enough to understand
this and immediately either ran away from parthi or hid from him during darshan or had to bear with it so that they would not lose their education.some of them used baba and got their work done, like getting into MBA or jobs and partly they enjoyed having sex with him. I was confused for a long time and he troubled me like hell indirectly.I did not lose faith in him and that made him cool down a little. I could not have sex with my divine lord. that was something i could not do... i was not a hypocrite. most of the students do not know about baba, because if we talk they will be perturbed and immediately tell the warden or write to baba.and we wil be out. so it was generally only those who were exploited who talked with each other.and that too only close friends. Even now there are students who believe that BaBa is doing the sex thing for some divine reason.

Imagine that, an "innocent" young boy in college who thinks giving blow jobs to God will purify him!!!

I do not remember the date etc., come on how can you ask some one who was treated shabbily and moreover i do not know the date on which i understood that he was not my God. Imagine you worship someone for years and he starts talking
to you. You are in absolute awe of him."GOD" HAS TALKED TO YOU OUT OF SO MANY PEOPLE.NOW HE TELLS YOU THAT IT IS ALRIGHT TO HAVE SEX WITH HIM.SEX IS SUCH AN INSTINCT THAT YOU DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH AND WITH WHOM IT IS CORRECT.YOUR VALUES CAN CHANGE ACCORDING TO YOUR CIRCUMSTANCES. when"GOD" TELLS YOU HE IS CORRECT(BUT U THINK OF HIM DIFFERENTLY AND SO YOU ARE CONFUSED) THAT IS THE REASON SOME DON'T MIND IT SOME RUN AWAY IMMEDIATELY AND SOME OTHERS GET CONFUSED AND THERE ARE OTHERS WHO ENJOY THE ACT AND ALSO USE THE PLACE FOR THEIR CONTACTS, UNIVERSITY DEGREES,JOBS AND EVEN MARRIAGE.