Edited by author 05-17-2006 11:12 PM
Been too long since I've debated, clarified or stirred up the self-righteous anger around here, eh? Truth is, even an old byrd like me can find new and wondrous things this world has to offer. NO!! My views/opinions regarding racial mixing have not changed in any way. I still firmly believe we are all made the way we are, to add what it is we are to add and that the generations of careful, educated and intentional breeding by our forefathers is something too PRECIOUS AND TOO "FORGOTTEN" in our current state of fear - excuse me - POLITICAL CORRECTNESS.
What has changed - as I'm sure you're all ANXIOUS to know is my faith. Powerful, life-changing, soul reviving faith in gods and godesses the Roman Empire and it's instrument of terror - christianity - very nearly made extinct. As a devout Christian my entire adult life - as an avid and obsessed researcher of the new testiment and "christ," having the truth - MY TRUTH - shown to me in ways I could not deny - well, for those who have found their religion/spirituality - you know the impact and confusion I first experienced! For those still seeking - KEEP SEEKING! Until you can say "none of it makes sense to me" and believe those words, live that statement with all you are - SEEK! READ! LISTEN! LEARN!
There is only one thing I am truly sure we all, as humans, have the ability to respect another for - and that is true conviction. Your relationship with your god/gods/godesses/nature/nothing.....THAT IS WHO WE REALLY ARE AND HOW WE REALLY WANT TO LIVE. Politically correct terrorism and the idiot box have deadened our minds and our hearts so much that we either fear to be who we are or we don't know at all.
I am a racial woman. I believe that my Nordic blood is precious and that my mission on this earth is guided by Odin and many other nordic gods and goddesses. THESE ARE MY GODS. JEWS HAVE THEIRS. ARABS, HINDU, SATANISTS...... I was given my life - a gift and my gods do not judge me for my failures. The failures teach what I am to know and when it's time to know it! My gods are also those of war. Valhalla and eternity with Odin is for the purest warriors alone. To die of disease or old age will never raise you to Valhalla. I was made to be the best. I am an Aryan woman who has been blessed with healthy, proud children - I am also a deadly warrior to all who seek to destroy my brethren, my heritage, my land, MY SPIRIT. Such a double edged sword, eh? To find such peace inside my soul - such perfect peace is found in the knowledge I WAS PUT HERE TO DEFEND - TO FIGHT - TO DIE! My forefathers and mothers, my kinsmen, my gods and godessess are beside me - in my battle. OUR battle. I hear often that I am a seriously crazy bitch. No fear of death or pain is my only explaination. My skein is tied, my future, my past are written. DO YOU UNDERSTAND??? In finding your soul's truth, you find LIFE'S TRUTH! YOUR TRUTH!

Yes. I believe the mixing of races will only achieve the extinction of many, many cultures. I believe YOUR VERY OWN hatred of me - or is it fear? - is the result of too much television, too much yellow journalism and too much UNWILLINGNESS TO DO YOUR OWN THINKING! TV says what's cool to own or wear - your newscaster of choice tells you what is important - or what they want you to know - even your god damned preacher tells you what "god" is really telling you in the book that YOU WERE TO INTERPRET! (Anyone read the bible? for real? yeah. right.)
Yes, I am a snob. Self-righteous, arrogant and opinionated. But GOD DAMN IT! NOT ONE SINGLE PERSON EVER TOLD ME WHAT I KNOW AND BELIEVE. I listened. I studied. I mused. I agonized. HAVE YOU?
Is there yet a single person here who will admit what is truly going on in their heads or hearts. Blah, blah, blah. YOUR SPOUTING OF THE CURRENT PARTY LINE IS SICKENING AND INSULTING TO ANYONE WHO PARTICIPATED IN THE MAKING OF TABOO WITH THE HOPES OF MAKING A DIFFERENCE! I answered my questions with complete honesty so ANYONE WHO LISTENED would understand who and what white racialists live and believe. My son, who is not a national socialist, provided insight into what it's really like growing up in a racially aware and active household.

WHAT DID YOU CONTRIBUTE? PLEASE.

TELL ME.

THE TRUTH.

If we do it right, maybe Abbe - and the world - will move from darkness, and fear into a place where we can all walk proud and do I dare dream) be who we are, able to celebrate our heritage freely - no matter where our bloodline began!
Damn it.
Obliterating any of this earth's cultures YES! I said ANY! - would be such a loss to all who follow.
How can you not feel my need to fight. Where is your pride in your forefathers and their history?
Damn it.
Am I speaking another dialect or is there just no one out there who really has the balls to listen to me?
I hope neither is true.
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Thank you.