Hi to the women in this community,
It has been a while since my participation in a group through Mother Woman, that was very wonderful and helpful for me in getting clear that I needed to separate from my marriage. I'm an "older" mom of 5 year old twins and now, having separated now for more than 1 and a half years, with a divorce to be finalized by August probably, I find myself disappointed (to say the least!)to realize I am not particularly "happy". I work full time at a demanding job, live in a small, temporary, very uncharming apt, and have my kids with me 4 nights a week. It is good I left a marriage that was not healthy but I am finding it hard to handle many things about my life right now. Working full time is stressful, along with being on my own with my kids without help or adult stimulation when I do have them,also dealing with the sadness that I am not with them full time and that they have to live in two homes and their heartbreaking sadness that I moved out of the home. It is hard to get to a group again with my schedule so I do find myself a bit isolated. I somehow thought that breaking free from my marriage would enable me to get some more breathing room and start a new life but I find I am so immersed in responsibilities and busyness that I an hardly come up for air. Any ideas, support is welcome.
I see myself as having a positive spirit and would love to feel it soar again. Thanks for reading.... :) Amy