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07-11-2009 08:15 BST (UK)
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last night i had yet another episode, probably the worst one yet. it occured as i was drifting off to sleep, a pins and needles type feeling radiates from the centre of my lower back, i was laid on my side at the time, and it felt like i could sense something stood behind me while i laid in bed. i tried to roll over but it was to late it had kicked in. what happened during this episode involved a devil who took over my body and willed me to do things, i have these sp's so often that i know its not me really doing anything but it is so terrifing and i was alone this time as my husband works nights. they are starting to get more frequent now 2 or three times a month and i am really nervous about going to bed. i have had sp since childhood and have scared the living daylights out of my parents when i have told them about the "ghosts" in our house, my mother has told me about the problems she had with me when i had really bad night terrors as a small child, and that i was prone to sleep walking quite often. she found me once at the bottom of the stairs with a broken arm, i had fell down them, but i couldnt remember at the time. i am 52 now and it worries me that the sleep walking episodes will restart, especially if i start to act out what happens during a sp event. My husband understands what is happening and will wake me. he has told me that he has also noticed that i will sometimes stop breathing and he has had to jolt me so i will start again, this i have seen the doctor about, sleep apnea, my brother and sister also suffer this, i can cope with it knowing that it is a family thing but the sp is making my life hell. i am not a religious person, but after the latest episode i must have said the lords prayer a dozen times so that thing would leave me alone. It makes you feel like you are going insane and that talking to a gp will result in being put in a lunatic asylum, but now i know so many other suffer from it i will approach my doctor
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