I feel stupid posting. Damn it!!!
Things just get harder and harder. Everyone expects me to just deal with things. I really am at the end of my rope.
I'm disgusted with getting nowhere whil taking steps to
improve my life. I also have tinnitus. The screeching in my ear is so high pitched, I pull out my hair from the
sheer annoyance. I can't hold a conversation cause
everything is masked with the wailing shriek in my head. I go days without sleep. This flared up years ago and it
never gets easier. There's no cure for this either.
Be happy you don't suffer like me. I once told my sick mom
to count her f------ blessings cause she's dancing on
peanuts compared to me.
This is my last post. I hope to die before the lovely
menepause kicks in. Autism dosen't mix with hormone changes.
I fear the future. I know I'm just gonna rot and get worse.
We're left to rot. Please be happy for your health and
abilties. I envy all of you to death.
Thanks.