I think jealousy isn't a bad thing here...from where I stand it means you still want something and maybe even have some dreams left in there somewhere. Be worried when those are gone. Its a pity the world doesn't do exactly as we want it to, but then again, that may be kinda dull. Hang in there!!! It'll get better, I promise.

P.S. I love the Non-Expert: Broken Heart Link. I think I too will work on memorizing it.