We lost our 18 months' old cat John in a tragic way two weeks ago. My mother let him run freely outside at night despite my repeated warnings and one night John went to a neigbor's unit and jumped off the high building and died. We lived on 20th floor. My father took its corpse back and he cursed my mother all night. I tried to calm him down by saying some nice words to protect my mother but now I also started to get mad at her. Similar incidents have happened for several times but this time it was the most tragic and heartbreaking one. I started feeling very lonely without him and of course, guilty too as I did not stop mother from doing silly things again. I also started to cry and cry. I tried to get close to God, pray and share this with a few friends but I still feel extremely bad and miss John very much. Now I dare not share this with my friends any more as it sounds silly.

I hesitated to go to help as I thought this is not so difficult to go over especially when I am a Christian. But as time progresses, I find I miss John even more as he won't come back. I hope to get some comfort from animal lovers in this website to go through the hard time as in our culture people are not so fond of animals. How can I ever forget John especially he left us this way? I love him very much but couldn't protect him from harm. Any suggestions or spiritual words? Thanks very much!

Kitty
From Hong Kong