It's okay! Grieve, grieve, grieve! It's the only way for your feelings for Ferbie to be released so you an enjoy your memories in a melancholy way!
It is losing your family, I lost Precious (my 18 year-old Persian kitty) about 4 years ago and I was so grateful for this website to help me through the pain of the loss. It will get easier, but only if you suffer through the grief. You will come out better rounded and more grateful for you best friend.
Best wishes!
Sheri :)

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