I just want to first thank you Marlene and Darlene for your comments, I am very glad I found Anne's website it's great to see that their are people out there who understand exactly what I am feeling and that these feelings are very strong. To Marlene, I am deeply sorry that you have to deal with the circumstance of putting your cocker to rest, Your selfishness is in love not maliciousness, we would do everything we can to help our beautiful companions, I wish you the best and whatever you decide to do, remember it will be in love. To Darlene I know exactly what you mean, some days are better and other days I just begin to cry with out warning, maybe a sound or me walking pass the mirror and remembering her following right behind me set's it off, I am deeply sorry for your loss as well, I know she is over that rainbow bridge healthy, happy and at peace, I just wish I could see her again and be there with her.