Stephani.I am so sorry for your loss.It is a hard time and you are right to grieve all you want. I am facing putting my 17 yr old cocker, Annie down in the next day or 2 as she has chronic renal failure and has not responded to treatment, is uncomfortable,and not eating. I know this should be viewed as a final act of love for her, but, being weak and selfish, I really don't want to do it and am struggling with this decision. However, I don't want to wait until she has more distress and pain.